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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Not Much to Say

But when has that ever stopped me?

We all had our annual performance reviews today. I have been a bit worried about this ever since my little eruption at work earlier this month. My faith has been somewhat restored in my manager (you know, up to the point where it was before...), as she didn't mention anything regarding that incident in my review. It was a lot more positive than I was expecting. What a relief! It did, however, mention my consistent tardiness. This has always been a problem for me, in all my past jobs. This is the first time it has shown up on one of my reviews though. I guess they are cracking down.

So, yet again, I am resolving to drag myself out of bed (this is really difficult for me, and I don't know if it has anything to do with my anxiety meds or not...but I had problems pre-meds too) early enough to get to work before my official start time, which is currently 9am. My new goal will be to get to work at 8:30am. That way, if I'm 15 minutes late, I'm still there before 9am. I've tried this before though, and slowly worked my way back up to 15 minutes (or so) past 9am. Ack!

And tomorrow, I'm in a training that starts at 9am. That means that if I want my tea before the class begins, I need to be there early! So, tonight I'm setting my cell phone alarm and placing the phone next to my bed. It's harder to ignore and/or snooze through than my regular alarm (which I have been known to sleep through...and hit snooze numerous times, even though it's across the room from the bed and I have to get up and walk to it to hit the button). Wish me luck with this all - I need the support!

And take a peek at my new horoscope avatar on my sidebar. Isn't it cute?


kerrit said...

Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know you. You'll need it. 10 times over. :)))) And good luck at the boring meetings. Blah. I love the sidebar. I may need that myself! And the girl kind of looks like you, did you do that purposely?

KERRI said...

haha my names not kerrit. lol.

Dagny said...

I too have often had complaints about my tardiness in the past. I am so not a morning person. Then a strange thing happened. I got a job that I truly like and not only am I on time, but I am frequently early.

Best of luck!

Joie said...

Actually, what cured me of tardiness almost cold turkey was hearing from psychologists what causes chronic tardiness. I was so horrified to hear that it is a common interpretation that it is caused by a sense of self importance; believing that you or whatever you are doing is more important than wherever you are to be/ whomever you are to see, that I really put myself in gear and fixed it. We still cut it close sometimes, but I have really cut down on the tardiness. I just can't deal with a self-image of narcissism.

Dagny also has a point. It became a lot easier for me to be on time when I had my own classroom and was loving it. A job you love, or at least don't dislike can be a motivating factor.

On another note, if you are having trouble waking up, you may not be getting enough sleep. Recent studies find that the average person is getting about 6.7 hours. We should really be getting at least 8. They have also found that not getting enough sleep can be an influencing factor in the development of heart disease, diabetes, depression and a whole host of other baddies. So, maybe more sleep would be the ticket for you.

Good luck. It is a really hard habit to break. I still fight with it too.
And the avitar is too cute!! Love it!!

Kristin said...

Good luck on the getting there ontime. I will tell you, since everyone is giving suggestions. If I sleep in on the weekends, I have a hard time during the week, so I try to get up close to the same time. So quit sleeping til noon on the weekends and it will help. I will bet you!!!

Tami said...

Joie - Ack! I so don't think I'm more important than anyone else! (If I did, I think I'd have a bit more confidence in myself!) I know that I have a harder time getting out of bed when I'm ultra-stressed at work. (Which I have been for a while.) And I know I don't get enough sleep at night. I usually need at least 8 hours, but feel best when I get between 9 and 10 hours (which does seem like a lot, yes). But, when I don't get home until after 7 each night, I find it hard to just eat and go to bed... It's a vicious cycle.

Oh, and I did get to work at 9am this morning. Not early enough to get my tea before the training began, but on time. (We did have a break at 10:30, so I got my much needed caffeine fix then.)

Joie said...

I didn't say it was the case for you. I said psychiatrists say it about chronically tardy people. Myself having been one of them. ( I can't imagine that the statement holds true for me either.) I just couldn't deal with being percieved that way, so just hearing that helped to shape me up.

Sorry if my comments weren't helpful. Just gave what ideas I had.

Congrats on your success! Good luck with keeping it going!!

Calamity Jen said...

I've heard the theory that Joie mentioned and was as horrified as she was. And, like Dagny, I've been lucky enough to find a job that I love. And you know what? I'm still 15-30 minutes late every day. That's been the case both on and off meds. It's not easy. I know what you're going through and I wish you lots and lots of luck.